50 Questions to Free My Mind...

1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?
   I would say I differ. Some days I feel 19. Some days I feel 27. Some days I feel 50. The best days are when I feel 5 years old. The worst are when I feel like I'm 100...
   
   
2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
   Never trying. If you never try, you cannot fail, true, but you also cannot succeed.
   
   
3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?
   Because we're idiots. I am so tired of doing shit I don't like to do. But the worst feeling of all is feeling FORCED to do it. For instance, College.
   
   
4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?
   At this point, it looks like yes. Heartbreaking, huh? Maybe I'll have some luck and turn this puppy around. I have a lot to do.
   
   
5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?
   The ridiculous expectations everyone has for everyone. The standards a person must uphold just to be treated decently is absolutely horrendous. It's to the point, one doesn't care that that person is suffering, as long as they're accepted by everyone else.
   
   
6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
   Teaching music or playing for a professional orchestra or marching band. I miss music...
   
   
7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?
   I think both. I am doing what I believe in, by going to school for education. But, I am settling for all the bullshit I have to put up with just to get there.
   
   
8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
   I'd say screw college, and see the world. You only have one life to live, so do all you can. Have kids, dance, see the world, drink, be sober, paint, write, listen to every kind of music in the world, teach, have a cat, have a dog, go to the zoo...you know, the works.
   
   
9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?
   I have control over some aspects, but I'm not one to control what happens. I just let it happen and react accordingly. I'm a pushover. *sigh*
   
   
10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
    Both. Mostly doing things right I suppose. If you do it wrong, are you doing the right thing? That's just redundant.
    
    
11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire.  They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend.  The criticism is distasteful and unjustified.  What do you do?
    I'd calmly explain to them that I feel it is in fact distasteful and rude, and that for people that I respected, I severely misjudged them.
    
    
12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?
    Climb back in buddy.
    
    
13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
    Yes.
    
    
14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?
    No, but I have seen creativity where I later saw insanity.
    
    
15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?
    Good question. Probably nothing because I do for others. I think I react to things different than most people. Also, I have different standards than most girls my age.
    
    
16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?
    I have no idea. Do they not? What makes me happy? I can think of one thing that did.
    
    
17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do?  What's holding you back?
    I really want to see the world. Money. Life.
    
    
18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?
    Not anymore. I believe...
    
    
19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
    Back to AZ if I had to stay in the US. Otherwise I'd go to Australia.
    
    
20. Do you push the elevator button more than once?  Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?
    I generally hit it twice. Not because it's faster. Just a habit.
    
    
21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?
    Joyful Smart-ass. Win.
    
    
22. Why are you, you?
    Because God hates me. That's why.
    
    
23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?
    Parts of me yes. Times, rather.
    
    
24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?
    When a good friend moves away. Its hella hard to rekindle that.
    
    
25. What are you most grateful for?
    My life now. My cat. My boyfriend. Midol.
    
    
26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?
    Neither. Sorry.
    
    
27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?
    Not to me. Proof please.
    
    
28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?
    Yes.
    
    
29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset?  Does it really matter now?
    Absolutely do. I moved to Indiana. It was the worst year of my life. I guess it was for the better tho in the long run.... Maybe.
    
    
30. What is your happiest childhood memory?  What makes it so special?
    I had the happiest childhood. That fact alone makes it special.
    
    
31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?
    When my boyfriend and I made love a while ago at his place. (sorry TMI...the question asked.)
    
    
32. If not now, then when?
    Good question. Right now feels like never and always.
    
    
33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?
    Everything.
    
    
34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?
    Yeah. Used to be all the time.
    
    
35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?
    Because religion is just another form of grouping or cliques, and cliques are just bad news all around.
    
    
36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?
    If you eat an apple in the garden of Eden I suppose.
    
    
37. If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?
    Nope. I love working with the kids.
    
    
38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
    More work I actually enjoy doing, duh.
    
    
39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?
    Yes and No.
    
    
40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?
    I have no idea what this question means. I'll need to ponder it more.
    
    
41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
    My boyfriend. My Momma. My sisters. My niece. A gun-seller.
    
    
42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
    Fuck No.
    
    
43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
    Breathing, and being in denial.
    
    
44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
    Always.
    
    
45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
    Because mistakes don't always fix themselves in your favor.
    
    
46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
    Have a baby of my own.
    
    
47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
    Earlier in the hall.
    
    
48. What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
    I love Him.
    I thought they did. I question that now.
    
    
49. In 5 years from now,will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?
    I have no idea what I did yesterday. It probably wasn't worth remembering.
    
    
50. Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
    N/A

I liked this. I will probably do it again sometime in the future and see how it changes.